Let God Decide

Chinese new year has come upon us once again.Just got back from dinner over at my aunt's house,and i couldn't believe how much each of us has changed.Its no longer like the old times,where everyone would gather and spent time together til midnight.Over the years,the spending time got shorter and shorter.I left before 9pm today,cos theres just nothing to do.Us kids have grown up,we no longer cramp together at the video games and play around madly in my room like we used to.

As i recall back,this is the third chinese new year since i decided to look for a soulmate.I remember when like every cousin of mine gotten their partner,and my parents were asking me wheres mine.However as each year come and go,i just couldn't really find one,not that i didn't bother to.Just that i sort of given up,i don't really know what i am looking for.Just someone i feel comfortable around with,and shes too.

March 11
Thats the D-date for me.I will be enlisted into national services on that day,and will be for 2 years.My years in poly have been wasted,i just sort of rot away while i am in there.I'm a big changed from my years in secondary school,i wonder how will being in the army change me too.

*Watching the stars*

My Desire

I desire

a world without worry
a life worth living
a future that is filling

Today i have handed back my airport and uniform.I feel so empty when i gave the pass back,its like i wouldn't be able to go in and out of the terminal as much as i like anymore.Futhermore i wouldn't be able to go into TOPS and slack on the couch.The termination was so sudden that i did not have a chance to bid farewell to any of my friends.I heard that even the SDO people doesn't know it would be that soon,that the rooster for us TOA (temp operation assistant) was already created for us til next saturday.Oh well at least before i left the airport,Eva passed by.I was able to say goodbye to at least one friend of mine.

On hindsight,we shouldn't have gave back the pass first.We could use the pass to take airport shuttlebus to ICC 2 to return our uniform before going to to ICC 1 to return the pass (Inflight Catering Center).As it was ,we gave the pass to SDO which is located in the airport.In the end,i have to take a bus back to Tampines,changed another bus to ICC2.Once we are done with our uniform,we have to take the only bus there back to Tampines and changed to another for ICC1.However by the time we left ICC2,it was closed to 5pm.We figure we wouldn't be able to make it in time to ICC1 for our pay,and decided to go again on another day.

Heh i was supposed to return everything SATS gave me,but i hide the necktie away in my bag.It's quite a nice tie,with the SATS logo on it.Since i couldn't get a SATS tie outside,i figure i would try and see if i keep it,for memory sake.

*getting on with life*

Free from the chain of labour...

As i woke up today at 1230,i knew i was going to be late for work.My shift starts at 1400 today,and since i woke up so late,i gave SDO a call to told them i am taking MC.To my shock,they said they were looking for me.I was wondering what they were looking for me for.They got another officer to talk to me and i was totally unprepared for what he was about to tell me.He told me tomorrow would be my last day of work,i didn't catch his meaning,and told i was planning to work til end of jan before quitting.Then he told me that all TOA (temp operation assistant) last day of work would be tml.Couldn't believing what i just heard,i ask him if that means our contract with SATS is coming to an end,to which he replied yes.He gave me the number of the human resources,where i have to resolved with them about my airport pass and my pay.

After that call,i was jolted awaked.I was planning to go back to sleep after the call,but i couldn't went back to sleep after knowing that i have my last day of work ALREADY.For tomorrow is my off day,today was supposed to be my last work of day,i call for MC cos i am too lazy to get up and hurry to work.I started thinking what i would do,for i have been working since Sept.Tho for the first two and a half months,i was working as a clerk,it was really the TOA job that i enjoy and would misses the most.I have only work as a TOA for 3 weeks,but i wouldn't forget the people the chair the couch.Most of all,the job allows me to roam freely around in the terminal,and meeting all kinds of people from all over the world.

Val once told me "It isn't like you are knowing them,you are just standing there smiling and greeting them"

Tho i doesn't know them or become a friend of them,but i am happy to meet those people already.The joy of meeting graceful people and of cos the dread of meeting rudeful people,they are all part of the job and how you view them.

I would miss this job in years to come,tho i have been enlisted into the army not far from now.Maybe compared to my last two jobs,a clerk and an apprentice at a motor shop,TOA was a more enjoyable job.I also have learnt some people skills,interaction skill with other people from TOA as i met hundreds,thousand of passengers per day.

All in all,i am grateful that i have the chance to work as a TOA.But a pity all great things come to an end.

*preparing for the future*